I honestly would die, die if it meant that I could be a ghost and be with you. I wouldn’t be bothering you then, I’d cuddle up against you while you slept, and you wouldn’t even know. I’d be happy just being with you… to be able to see you and be there with you. I’d honestly be happy with just that. I feel like all I ever do is bother you… I try to be there for you, I try to help you through things, but when you get out of your depressions you never say its because of me… you never say i helped… I don’t even know why you bother with me, I just feel like all I do is bother you…
I’d die to be with you, I’d die for you and… I just bother you…
Maybe one day I will die, maybe one day it will be too late for you to tell me how you really feel. Because deep down, you have to feel something don’t you? There has to be some part of you that would be destroyed if I were gone. At least that’s what I hope. That’s why I’m not dead yet. The thought of hurting you would be too much for me… I could never do anything to hurt you, not intentionally anyway. I think being in your life just hurts you… but getting to be apart of your life is the reason I’m alive…. -sigh- Maybe one day you will want me, you will see that I’d do anything for you, that you will love me back. Until that day, I’ll be waiting. Sure, you may see me flirt with other guys, talk to them, maybe even go on dates, but it will all be to distract myself from the pain. The pain that knowing every night I don’t get to go home and be in your arms. I’ll always love you and be here waiting. Even if it means forever for you, because you’re worth it to me, you’re everything.